read that first then read this

that

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this.

yup we found a middle-earth like place here in the middle of the city!

i've gotta tell you, i went "subahanallah!" countless times.

Bukit tabuh is absolutely breath-takingly amazingly wonderfully beautiful place!

i didn't want to leave the place..

see for youself~ but the real thing is so MUCH MORE, thousand times better!

bukit mas water tank. that's where we started

the way up

munira and i

just GREEN

this is the gang


that's me!

that's my battle wound [read:leech-bite (i got 7)]

rock climbing!!

high up there~

two different worlds~ (that's the klang dam btw)


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when we finally came down at the klang gate, we rested for a while before walking back 6km to the car (our starting point). my body gave away when walking up the hill where the car was. i just sat there, in the middle (okay, side) of the road and waited for them to come down for us.

then we heade to melawati for nasi ayam. and when i got up to walk to the car, my legs (thighs) cramped up. i couldn't move...man it was painful! cramps are common for me..so wasn't a big deal :)

i truly had the best day ever!

all thanks to MUNIRA for inviting~


P/S: credits to munira for some of the pictures (you know which moon)

sorry~

i apologize from every cell in my being for the long long hiatus,
for going MIA and for losing my short story file~

wait what?

yup that's right folks i LOST it. i have no idea where i saved it. there was one copy in my (read: my bro's) thumbdrive but i deleted it off cause, well, cause i thought i saved it somewhere else as in my computer or laptop. turns out i DIDN't! haih...typical shaqyl move~

oh well i could always write another. BUT not at the moment cause i'm swamped with designing projects. who would've thought i'd still be doing this? EVERYONE of course. hm, my doctor said i still couldn't let go. then again how could i? it's sort of like second nature to me. i told her, perhaps i never will~

anyways yup lots to do. no holiday for me eyh

1. Websites (2 and more coming my way)
2. PR proposal for FFC (flag football club) (which i have submitted my draft but no one else seems to care to do their part...lalala~) (i still need to work on the posters!)
3. A design concept for a single release ( for a friend)
4. I forgot!!! (hmm it'll come to me later~)

sneaking~

we are to do a short story, a narrative essay for writing class.

will be posting it here when i've done it.

it's due Nov 6th.

have so many ideas!! as usual fragments of them~

why do we do it? why do i?

why do we procrastinate till the very last minute then regret doing it but proceed to do it all over again come next task?

just because we're humans?

perhaps that's the excuse we give.



reminder to shaqyl: go do your assignments now!!!

broadcast day!

aah....my radio project!

almost done. (yea right!) lots to do.

the script!!!! is NOT done!

isabel and sabrina are supposed to do it. i've reminded them one too many times.....

well lemme tell you what's done

Public Service Announcements (PSAs)
Capsules (-Scariest Places)
Station ID
Promotions (-Roxy, Quicksilver, Fitness First)


here are the posters.....








^ this one is the first draft....didn't use it. only the two above are used.

drops on the way home

i spent a day with him. not exactly a day.

supposedly 'my day' but there were interferences

not that i mind. well i do mind. especially the second one which i suggested.

hated myself for that.

but what am i to do?

the floods came rushing when i was on the bus on my way back home. i cried silently.
i took the back seat.

nobody noticed.

the whole time.....during the day, i had a question bursting to be let out

"what would you do if i left you?"

it never surfaced. i couldn't.

support him!

remember this?

now it's an album already!!

DOWNLOAD

it's free people~

deserve

thousands of apologies for not updating for quite a long time

so many things to say and yet i stay away..^_^

got my room back! yay me! we set up a new bed in the old computer room for grandma. now i don't have to 'merempat' anymore. got my computer back as well but sadly without Internet connection. we transferred the router to the dining hall cause my bro wants to be connected by network cables instead of wireless cause he's in charge of downloading stuffs. which means...the router is further away from my room...cables aren't long enough =_='

the wireless signal doesn't reach my room...too many obstacles (walls). i still hog my bro's computer then..haha. he complains about but i have a good come back now don't i?

things in school is not so great either...we have this radio project going where we have to produce a two-hour radio show. i'm the station manager. two of my group mates are not doing their part and to further increase my blood pressure they are putting the blame on me and the other group mates. ooh there's a lot of drama involved...lets not talk about that.

green team had a birthday party for azwar last monday. i actually met a few of my friends that night (i always do when i go to gombak). Ajmal came down from kuantan for an event (student excellence award. ajmal's a straight A student mind you, and he's doing medicine, my former ELS president). got to see him after 3 years! then bumped into taufiq, najwa (who also came down for the awards), shereen, firwan, hasbi...and a few others.

i'm always re-energized after a day or more spent at gombak. i just love the environment there.

as for my journey towards re-entering gombak. well, i'm currently drafting a letter to be sent to Ust Hamidon. Zayan suggested i do that. perhaps i'll have a shot. even if it is a long shot.

what else?? hmm...lots to write about, and it's all coming to me at one go. can't separate them...aiyoo..will update later la

oh yea the topic's supposed to be for another entry...tp biarla..as a reminder for me

teach me to live

you're torturing me with an arrow
a blunt dagger, just above, hovering,
it gives me hope however,
just end this, end my sorrow

my one-man army preparing solely
against red-painted skies of enemy
merging with forests of allies
marching towards me remorseless

remember once you saw of bright visions
intertwining clutches of passion
making precise images of our future
and said "I’m going to take you further now"

have I mention of grey nights?
evolving slowly, seeping into the essence
bringing forth thousands of suffocating fumes
slithering mysteriously by inches

triangle tethers are forged mercilessly
forced to be worn leaving distinguishing marks
throwing all off balance in the chaos
our threshold is unsteadied by animosity

stop threading on my land
leaving muddy trails, stepping on blood of hurt
crushing new pockets of life
just finding the meaning of growth

orange leaves are soaring aimlessly
as if mocking me silently laughing continuously
to petty arguments, picking fights
give in if you must but keep your pride

I watch drops of rain colour the pavement
darker gaps between sun beams clearer
cracks on walls arranging layered patterns
saying one thing or another

I hear now chatters of life around me
young lives emit rhythmic inscriptions
happy notes stirs envy in my hollowed grounds
partly urging me to stand and see

perhaps it is time to sing out loud
write on soft waves in the wind or so
sway me to uncharted depths of new worlds
teach me to live wordless and proud

god is with the brohenhearted

When Moses conversed with God, he asked, "Lord, where shall I seek You?"

God answered, "Among the brokenhearted."

Moses continued, "But, Lord, no heart could be more despairing than mine."

And God replied, "Then I am where you are."

-Abu'l-Fayd al-Misri, "The Kashf al-Mahjub"

must read...

....this

update!

called bodyshop, but they said they can't let me join. worth the try anyway. there's another possibility of things actually working out in my favour right? so, yea~

there's next year's to look forward to. ameen.

also, didn't get to sleep in the LRT on the way back cause my bro picked me up from school.

after which we went to pick up our money. earlier in january, we did this survey thing. where you count cars, bikes etc. at a certain road during peak hours. got 56rm. yay~

gonna save that for penang!


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my bro will be getting a DSLR~ can't wait!

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smile, even when no one is looking.

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you don't take a photograph. you ask, quietly, to borrow it.

fixing the unfixable..

now it's easier to find the way~

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i got to thinking the other day...

i realised that i find (or they come to me) things to fix and fix it. and almost all the time i would be able to.

however, it hit me one day that i prolly fix things for others because i can't fix mine.

the three most biggest buggers in my life. two of 'em aren't present right now so perhaps i can push that to the tray marked 'later'. technically one is present but not physically. so i just won't count it...

the biggest of the biggest buggers is the one that i constantly think about. even more so on Mondays.

i might be contradicting my sentence before this, but Mondays have become my favourite day of the week. it sort of gives me two opposite feelings. in which i try to not think of the negative one until later that day during the one hour i take to fall asleep.

as for the positive energy i get from Mondays, i soak in every single bit of it and save it for the week long.

it is difficult for me to let go. it is difficult to let go.

i'm not ready yet. i haven't given up. i still have barrels of hope. and He is with me.

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i had a wonderful meeting yesterday with GT.

we had new faces, zalikha (moon's studio mate), maryam (moon's sister) and claro (azwar's friend from the football club).

and for the second time in a row, azwar was present. i invited him though.

although yesterday, i had another realization, perhaps azwar doesn't really want to be there? does he feel forced to come? cause i have invited him quite a number of times...but to come two times in a row?

this is what was running across my mind last night "should i invite him again or should i just leave it open?"

because i do not want him to feel obliged to come just because of the insignificant favours i did for him.

aah come to think of it..i'm thinking too much. i shall stop now. by the way why am i even talking about azwar aka malaysian william hung???? meh~

---topic changing----

kim and shany are going to the international coastal cleanup in kuantan this weekend. which is so cool!

i only noticed the due date the day after it. i was thinking of asking kim if she would be going.

aah silly mistake!

anyway will try calling them and ask if i could join. worth a try ain't it

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currently in the computer lab in school waiting for the next class. since it's ramadhan. if not i would be munching on several things down at the cafe. haha.

the unreliable LRT broke down again today. i reached my 8am class at 9am! thank God my attendance was accepted despite.

slept the whole way. head bobbing up and down. not very ladylike I KNOW. who cares? i was freakin' tired and sleepy.

planning on sleeping on the way back as well. looking forward to it :p

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well i'll just go back to surfing now~


à tout à l'heure

A man went back to transgressing after he had sincerely asked forgiveness of God and swore never to sin again. "How will God forgive me this time?" he asked in despair.

A heavenly voice responded, "You obeyed Me and I made amends for you, then you abandoned Me and I indulged you, and now that you returned to Me I shall receive you."

-Al-Hujwiri, "The Kashf al-Mahjub"

sambungan kepada szakif~

okay gambar dr depan sudah diperolehi.

kiri:imran kanan:nabil

verdictnye???

Sleep, angels will watch over you
And soon, beautiful dreams will come true.
Can you feel spirits embracing our souls
So dream, while secrets of darkness unfold.

( Hayley Westenra, Prayer )

Maturity is the ability to do a job whether or not you are supervised, to carry money without spending it, and to bear an injustice without wanting to get even.

Write the bad things that are done to you in sand, but write the good things that happen to you on a piece of marble.

-Arabic Proverb

tao

The Ineffable, about which is spoken, is not the eternal Ineffable
A name for the Unnameable, is but a name
The Unnameable is what makes everything what it is
By naming things you divide the Indivisible
Only one who gives up all his desires can experience the Indivisible
One who still cherishes desires, will experience only dissension
Both will see the same reality, but experience it differently
One who goes from the false reality into the other,
Will pass through the narrow gate and receive the secret of true life

The Tao Te Ching of Lao Tzu

in between

You know that place between sleep and awake, the place where you can still remember dreaming? That's where I'll always love you . shaqyl.