that was the day

crying as if in opposition to the rain pattering outside on the pavement,
staring blindly at her plate still full untouched,
mind away from this place,
could this really be happening?
just a year ago...the same place, same person, not the other,
same date not year....but the same.....and somehow different and sad
"believe it!" says to herself "just accept it......."
"i can't, i won't" says the other her....