fixing the unfixable..

now it's easier to find the way~

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i got to thinking the other day...

i realised that i find (or they come to me) things to fix and fix it. and almost all the time i would be able to.

however, it hit me one day that i prolly fix things for others because i can't fix mine.

the three most biggest buggers in my life. two of 'em aren't present right now so perhaps i can push that to the tray marked 'later'. technically one is present but not physically. so i just won't count it...

the biggest of the biggest buggers is the one that i constantly think about. even more so on Mondays.

i might be contradicting my sentence before this, but Mondays have become my favourite day of the week. it sort of gives me two opposite feelings. in which i try to not think of the negative one until later that day during the one hour i take to fall asleep.

as for the positive energy i get from Mondays, i soak in every single bit of it and save it for the week long.

it is difficult for me to let go. it is difficult to let go.

i'm not ready yet. i haven't given up. i still have barrels of hope. and He is with me.

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i had a wonderful meeting yesterday with GT.

we had new faces, zalikha (moon's studio mate), maryam (moon's sister) and claro (azwar's friend from the football club).

and for the second time in a row, azwar was present. i invited him though.

although yesterday, i had another realization, perhaps azwar doesn't really want to be there? does he feel forced to come? cause i have invited him quite a number of times...but to come two times in a row?

this is what was running across my mind last night "should i invite him again or should i just leave it open?"

because i do not want him to feel obliged to come just because of the insignificant favours i did for him.

aah come to think of it..i'm thinking too much. i shall stop now. by the way why am i even talking about azwar aka malaysian william hung???? meh~

---topic changing----

kim and shany are going to the international coastal cleanup in kuantan this weekend. which is so cool!

i only noticed the due date the day after it. i was thinking of asking kim if she would be going.

aah silly mistake!

anyway will try calling them and ask if i could join. worth a try ain't it

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currently in the computer lab in school waiting for the next class. since it's ramadhan. if not i would be munching on several things down at the cafe. haha.

the unreliable LRT broke down again today. i reached my 8am class at 9am! thank God my attendance was accepted despite.

slept the whole way. head bobbing up and down. not very ladylike I KNOW. who cares? i was freakin' tired and sleepy.

planning on sleeping on the way back as well. looking forward to it :p

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well i'll just go back to surfing now~


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